i am alive

yeah or something like that. thursday i had to pick up early my girl because she didn´t feel well so my routine went together, i could play some capoeira at night though so it was not totally zero.
after a break yesterday i could manage to practise a little (yoga with adriene) before my little one wakes up again. i am alive was the mantra of today, but all i can feel is stress coming back to my body and pain from the little capoeira i´ve played this week. sore shoulders from carving wood.

i awaken

i awaken my mind and my hip joints today with yogawithadriene. it still is very hard to focus when i come back home after leaving my little one crying at pre-school. i have to get in mind that i deserve this time for me. i still feel guilty of not having her around, doing things for me and find my own rhytm to start in the day.

very stiff hamstrings and the usual hip problem. ouch

I embrace ...

... yeah what? even though i was not motivated at all today in the morning - i had to bring my daughter to pre-school, she is going to stay the whole day there. kids crying for mom, not knowing what´s going on makes it not easy to turn around and go.
coming home and going straight to pratise was very hard. but i´ve done it. i couldn´t get 100 % into it until the end and i think i am going to do my meditation session later, when my mind is free from daily routine (so not!).

namaste

and today i embrace myself and my asymetric body ;-)

I (hopefully) create ...

routine, rhythm, more flex and time, space and inner peace. 

tensions yesterday started that i realised i can´t put anything aside to create my space and time(window) to pratise. i was hard to get through the day, i could feel sore muscles in my shoulder only from the little practise i had the day before yesterday - which showed me once again how i weakend the last few months. i can´t recall a moment in my last years, or even decade where i´ve been that much out of shape. it´s frustrating and i strongly have to remind myself that what i do i do for me. 

today after coffee i could manage to get one hour of pracise (adriene!!) and a 10 min meditation, almost quiet, almost calm, but a lot in my mind. still. better start than yesterday! and off we go..

she started pre-school

nearly one month has passed and i´ve been busy to get myself together again. first my stomach was not well again so i had a timeout in doing anything more than walking. then we started our capoeira classes again and more and more i am getting involved in teaching there too. mainly stretching and endurance but ok and very exciting for me, although i am often tired the next morning and i am longing for a bit more time for myself.

which is happening right now. the first time since my daughter is born, over 1,5 years, i am not around her, and can have time for my yoga practise and meditation. she started pre-school. honestly i was counting the days until i can train peacefully in the mornings, i think only mothers can understand who actually are 24/7 with a baby - my daughter never spent a day or even hours away from me, not even at grandparents´. i was starting to feel really worn out and i lost the view on my inner body. it feels like myself is fading away.

today, in my first 2,5 hours by myself, i started with a gentle yoga session (yoga with adrianne on youtube), simple sunsalutations and the first meditation session of 7mind (a meditation guide app in german). at the end i felt my body pounding, grounded and gentle warm and soft. 

and now.. a cup of coffee !

#15 #16

plank days . it's defenitely getting harder... 2 mins and counting.

#14

capoeira, plank and so so done from the week. looking back seems like i've done nothing.

#13

rest rest rest

#12

morning-90sec-plank even before coffee. in the evening we returned having capoeira class. literally destroyed. but happy.

#11

i've tried to do a session on sun salutations but my dearest daughter kept sitting onmy head and even pushed me a few times. at least i did my plank. 1 min!

#10

plank and capoeira

#9

plank day

#8

after i have been practising onlywith the app it was a nice treat to tune in with kino today. smooth beginner class. you can find it here: Kinos Beginner Session.

taking pictures during practise is good to see what you have to improve, what you already have improved, how your body change or you can even see how you breathe. the simpliest and very basic downwardfacing dog for example - still too stiff hamstrings, hips almost there and i have to sink deeper into the shoulder blades.

#7

pocket yoga - ocean flow. which wouldn´t really start flowing - my daughter kept sitting on my head and back during practise.

#6

plank free day. also not so feeling well.. so also no training at all ;-)

#5

today i've started with sun salutations (pocket yoga) and did my day 5 40 sec plank. my daughter interrupted me a few times though :-)

#3 #4

just lazy plank days... i'm getting there slowly!
30 sec

#day2

and yoga it is (for today) !
soon after breakfast i did my 20 sec plank (way too easy so far but i guess in a few days i won't complain anymore...) and the 30 mins intermediate yoga session "ocean" from pocketyoga. that's an app which is good for starters (easy postures, good explained) and to get a certain routine in practising every day. i think it will get boring soon though the more routine you get...

#day1

today as everybody else i started slowly into the very first day of the year. i´ve lost a bet and went on a thread-mill in the early afternoon but that was more like just for fun...

later i did a small yoga session - Erin Motz from doyouyoga.com who has a 30 day yoga challenge programme on youtube. her day1 practise focused on hips opening - check it out: 

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and to finish my day i started the 30 day plank challenge of 30dayfitnesschallenges.com - 20 sec in half plank (which i find is more difficult than full plank, and less impact for the wrists)

challenge accepted

my name is Pia, I am from austria and live with my husband and daughter in brazil. this blog is less a call for followers or to spread my ideas, it´s more of a personal journal to keep me continuing my journey into a different way to see my body, to find my inner peace.

usually I don´t challenge myself in public nor put photos of me sweating, exercising. but this year I need to get back to where I was and beyond. since my daughter was born, I hardly was able to exercise frequently or could keep up with my capoeira (brazilian martial art) students, I´ve lost my flexibility and I simply miss that good feeling in my body after a good workout. 

my goal is to get back to a good rhythm of workouts which will be a mixture of yoga, pilates, capoeira and gym.

this is my journey,
can´t wait